I am tired of myself this way,
whining at the world in expectation
of a salvation delivered.
I am tired of myself this way,
shuffling from one unfinished room to the next
waiting for inspiration to move me to action.
I am tired of myself this way,
proclaiming meaningless truths to those I love
unseeing of the precious time I have wasted.
I am tired of myself this way,
finding roots of the undesired
run deep in my bones.
I am tired of myself this way,
failing to name what I am
and what I desire to be.
The hardest surrender
is to let go of that which is not named
and to be unknown even to myself.
Succeeding in Life 
I find it helps to be gentle with myself, to “try softly,” and remember that there are long periods of gestation when it appears we are just wasting time or lost, but in fact there is much Becoming going on deep within. The route isn’t always linear, is it? In the meantime, as we wait for answers, laughter helps. Lily Tomlin said, “I always wanted to be somebody, but now I realize I should have been more specific,” which certainly speaks to how I sometimes feel.
Kind and thoughtful words…thank you.